About what happened after "two slaps and a push"
-1:37 p.m. , Sunday,2 April
Then i received a text from my childhood friend. We wanted to meet since long but couldn't make it and when i needed somebody she was there.
She: Hey! Are you home?
Can i come to see you?
Me. : Yes pleeaassssee! (Because i wanted to stay away from her)
She : Okay I'll pick you in 10 minutes and if you want you can come over to stay.
Me. : Come soon!
She came to my place and then i opened up with her after we left. She said I'm not any minor anymore. I have to raise my voice if someone hits me. She made me feel good and strong. She motivated me. Then i stayed with her for another day too and we cooked and i was happy but just one thing went round in my head that how long will i have to do this! How long will i ignore my Mother.
At night i received a call from my best friend. I told her about what happened. She was disappointed by me as i didn't share any of these with her. While she talked she seemed worried about me. And again i felt bad for this. This is the reason why I feel uncomfortable about sharing such things with her. She loves me alot.
Next day i had to be home. I didn't have my meals at home. I had it outside. But then one of my friends came over to my place and so i had to talk to her and then we forgot what happened. I stayed quiet. I couldn't sleep at night. Even during daytime i tried to sleep but couldn't sleep peacefully. I looked tired. Even on field i kept thinking about this. I couldn't focus on any work. Again, i felt low.
Was then tryin' to get better and she spoilt it again. She tried to hit with a stick this time. But i stayed firm and acted strong so she couldn't hit me. She shouted and went away. I couldn't stop thinking of this and so did my eyes rolled tears for long. It was Papa who saw me and asked what was wrong. I cried it out and then told how i felt. I shared with him and even warned her to not try or hit me again ever. She laughed when i said i would file a police complain. She is my mother. But I'm 18 up and no one can hit me for no reason. No one can touch me!
This time i felt strong. My Papa said to keep things inside to hold on to relationships. But i was tired of thinking and so i told her ,on her face to leave her the next time she ever did this to me .
-1:37 p.m. , Sunday,2 April
Then i received a text from my childhood friend. We wanted to meet since long but couldn't make it and when i needed somebody she was there.
She: Hey! Are you home?
Can i come to see you?
Me. : Yes pleeaassssee! (Because i wanted to stay away from her)
She : Okay I'll pick you in 10 minutes and if you want you can come over to stay.
Me. : Come soon!
She came to my place and then i opened up with her after we left. She said I'm not any minor anymore. I have to raise my voice if someone hits me. She made me feel good and strong. She motivated me. Then i stayed with her for another day too and we cooked and i was happy but just one thing went round in my head that how long will i have to do this! How long will i ignore my Mother.
At night i received a call from my best friend. I told her about what happened. She was disappointed by me as i didn't share any of these with her. While she talked she seemed worried about me. And again i felt bad for this. This is the reason why I feel uncomfortable about sharing such things with her. She loves me alot.
Next day i had to be home. I didn't have my meals at home. I had it outside. But then one of my friends came over to my place and so i had to talk to her and then we forgot what happened. I stayed quiet. I couldn't sleep at night. Even during daytime i tried to sleep but couldn't sleep peacefully. I looked tired. Even on field i kept thinking about this. I couldn't focus on any work. Again, i felt low.
Was then tryin' to get better and she spoilt it again. She tried to hit with a stick this time. But i stayed firm and acted strong so she couldn't hit me. She shouted and went away. I couldn't stop thinking of this and so did my eyes rolled tears for long. It was Papa who saw me and asked what was wrong. I cried it out and then told how i felt. I shared with him and even warned her to not try or hit me again ever. She laughed when i said i would file a police complain. She is my mother. But I'm 18 up and no one can hit me for no reason. No one can touch me!
This time i felt strong. My Papa said to keep things inside to hold on to relationships. But i was tired of thinking and so i told her ,on her face to leave her the next time she ever did this to me .
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